Like a zombie, I rise.
I can tell you that this whole experience has been hard. The overall taste in my mouth isn't just that my husband separated from me, but that he decimated me. This was no graceful goodbye.
It's been important during this process to take care of myself so I can better take care of my daughter. I've had to be quick on my feet and adjustable as well as ..just.. durable. I'm still human and I'm still hurt, and, oh hey, still super pregnant. So there are moments where I find myself screaming, crying, and trying so desperately hard not to text him again. For the record, he hasn't answered in weeks.
I've learned a lot about myself, my husband and my marriage over the past four weeks. I'm defeated by some of it and disgusted by other parts. I'm impressed with how fucking well I've kept my shit together.
Again, I appreciate everyone who's reached out, offered an ear, a word, baby clothes, or food. My shit would have crumbled without y'all.
I can tell you that this whole experience has been hard. The overall taste in my mouth isn't just that my husband separated from me, but that he decimated me. This was no graceful goodbye.
It's been important during this process to take care of myself so I can better take care of my daughter. I've had to be quick on my feet and adjustable as well as ..just.. durable. I'm still human and I'm still hurt, and, oh hey, still super pregnant. So there are moments where I find myself screaming, crying, and trying so desperately hard not to text him again. For the record, he hasn't answered in weeks.
I've learned a lot about myself, my husband and my marriage over the past four weeks. I'm defeated by some of it and disgusted by other parts. I'm impressed with how fucking well I've kept my shit together.
Again, I appreciate everyone who's reached out, offered an ear, a word, baby clothes, or food. My shit would have crumbled without y'all.
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